Goodbye Myspace - For Now

Pada hari sabtu, 19 april 2008 pukul 6 pagi camtu, aku telah mendeletekan myspace aku yg banyak berjasa pada aku tu. ye la, byk la kawan2 yg aku jumpa melalui myspace. mmg betol lah tagline nyer, a place for friend. ramai kawan datang dan ramai juga kawan yg pergi. tp semua bersemadi di ingatan ku.

Sebab aku delete? Kali ni kali kedua aku mendelete myspace aku. Pertama kali dulu time aku gaduh ngan ex pertama aku. Ye la, first love la katanya, harus la mengikut kata saje. hehe. Sayang punya pasal delete je. Dia lah segala galanya bagiku masa tu. Tak lama lepas tu, da baek balek, aku on balek myspace aku dan add balek kawan2 rapat aku di masa tu seperti paktam, elva, lazybeger, nina nenot dan amer. those were my closest fren at that time.

And sebab aku delete my myspace this time? lebih kurang the same la. For those who have been close to my life mesti tahu perkembangan hidup aku kan. Setelah sekian lama single (da tahap masuk arkib jadi khazanah negara da kata paktam), aku ada rapat dgn seseorang ni, which i dont know how, but i fell so deeply in love with (eventho kami mmg takde ape2 ikatan lagi). Im a love-sick puppy. Pegi mana2 pon i keep thinking tentang dia. I thought that when i go to sipadan i can forget, but i was only fooling myself. I cant hide from my feeling. Seriously, my feeling towards dia sgt mendalam, melebihi sesiapa pun yg pernah aku cintai dalam hidup aku. I've never felt so hopelessly devoted to someone before. Bak kata org mandi tak basah makan tak kenyang la. Hahaha. I know its very tacky but its true. Could it be true love? Hmmm i dont know. But i know its karma, what goes around comes around. Aku penah menyakiti hati orang dan kini aku da terima balek perkara yg aku telah buat pada org laen. Aku pasrah.

to KAMU, i've tried everything i can to make u love me back, but i think i fail at that. Your heart was never mine and will never be mine. I have to accept that. Love is a strange thing. You cannot force it into sum1 life. It's either there or not. If i let this "thing" between us going on it will only hurt me more because i will fall in love with you more and more each day. Cinta yg bertepuk sebelah tangan will never work. Sy tak bencikan kamu (instead, i feel the total opposite of hate), kamu langsong tak bersalah dalam hal ini, cuma sy je yg da tak mampu nak handle all the emotional rollercoaster. You've been wonderful to me and i will treasure every moment we had together. Thank you. I am STILL in love with you.

Well, my myspace is history now. My last comment was from jack, which is comment #36111. Ppl said, "ko tak sayang ke delete myspace ko yg beribu2 komen tu". Sayang mmg la syg. All the comment tu kenangan taw, but for my well being i had to. I had no choice. Selagi ada myspace aku akan sentiasa bukak pej dia dan rasa pilu hiba segala. So its better this way. To all myfriend, eventho korang takde dalam toplist aku lagi, korang still toplist in my heart <3 I love you guys so much. Thanks for the words of encouragement. Thanks for being with me and keeping me occupied with other things. I truly appreciate it. At least blog still ada kan. ;) I will register myspace baru nanti, siapa bole hidup tanpa myspace kan. Tapi lambat lagi la. Once da ada nanti aku akan add sorang2 dan aku akan paksa korang letak aku kat toplist balek hahahaa! Signing out.